Currently Listening Combinations By Eisley see related

woo woo woo i like colorado because of this stuff

but i HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE it because of this stuff:

this on my appendix

and mostly, because this man is not there.

and even though i'm home right now for thanksgiving, i have to go back tomorrow early in the morning, and my heart hurts.

Currently Listening Carried Me: The Worship Project By Jeremy Camp Carried Me see related

i love everyone of you, and this day makes me think of all of you every year.

i'm so happy that pastor phil gets to be in heaven...what a great thing.

i really do love you all. and i'm so proud of all of us. we are all really doing it; really getting out there and getting our hands dirty.

Currently Watching The Departed (Full Screen Edition) By Leonardo DiCaprio, Matt Damon, Jack Nicholson, Mark Wahlberg, Martin Sheen see related

hello xanga. how are you. i like to talk to my xanga as if it were a person. because maybe it is, you know? maybe it is.

a week from tomorrow, i will be flying out to Colorado Springs for 12 weeks. i am so adventurous!!! i am getting excited, and nervous. it's going to be very interesting. i found out a couple weeks ago that there's a dress code, and i can't wear pants to my internship. a little sexist if you ask me, especially this day in age, but it was still an excuse to buy a bunch of new sassy skirt suits. i used "sassy" there for the alliteration. i had fun buying all of them. i'm going to look like a hot secretary. haha.

last week i babysat for a pathological liar who liked cartoon network more than i've ever seen anyone like a tv network before. there was this one show with an elephant that had an indian accent. that was the only show i could tolerate. you know, because of the accent.

right now i'm in athens for a few days with aar. today we went swimming at my future apartment complex. and he cooked spaghetti and i made cookies. tomorrow meg's coming to see us and then the next day we're going to columbus for amy's birthday. 21!!!!!!!!! and then to akron for the rest of the week and then....the Springs. whooooeeee.

my friend wanjiru from kenya called tonight. i am really going to miss her when school starts up again because she is in missouri now. she is planning on coming to my house for thanksgiving this year because thanksgiving dinner is the "last american custom" she has yet to experience. that will be funnnn.

this entry is so boring, i apologize. now i am going to post pictures of everything mentioned in this entry, just to spice it up a bit.

colorado springs:

skirt suits i bought (or similar to what i bought):

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the indian elephant:

athens:

my future apartment (it's the only picture i could find):

aaron (and me):

Meg:

amy:

columbus:

spaghetti:

chocolate chips:

wanjiru (and me):

columbia, missouri:

thanksgiving dinner:

the end

Currently Listening Waking Up By Bethany Dillon Are You Sure? see related

tonight i was at Carole and Tim's, and she told me that she had read my last entry and that she had a bible passage for me. It was part of Lamentations 3:

 19 I remember my affliction and my wandering,
       the bitterness and the gall.

 20 I well remember them,
       and my soul is downcast within me.

 21 Yet this I call to mind
       and therefore I have hope:

 22 Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed,
       for his compassions never fail.

 23 They are new every morning;
       great is your faithfulness.

 24 I say to myself, "The LORD is my portion;
       therefore I will wait for him."

 25 The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him,
       to the one who seeks him;

 26 it is good to wait quietly
       for the salvation of the LORD.

 27 It is good for a man to bear the yoke
       while he is young.

 28 Let him sit alone in silence,
       for the LORD has laid it on him.

 29 Let him bury his face in the dust—
       there may yet be hope.

 30 Let him offer his cheek to one who would strike him,
       and let him be filled with disgrace.

 31 For men are not cast off
       by the Lord forever.

 32 Though he brings grief, he will show compassion,
       so great is his unfailing love.

 33 For he does not willingly bring affliction
       or grief to the children of men.

it is so beautiful and poetic and true, and I love it. Thank you Carole!

On another note, I realize that I have absolutely no idea who reads this, or even if ANYONE does anymore, but tonight i had kind of an eye-opening conversation with Amy. She was talking about a relationship she was in in the past with someone she thought she might marry, and then it ended. And I don't think I ever realized how hard that was for her, or how long it took her to feel right again. And I have not been respectful of that for someone else in my life, and I want to apologize more than anything, but I think she needs to be left alone. But I am sorry, xanga world. will you tell her for me?

colorado is coming soon. i am everywhere.

Currently Listening Room Noises By Eisley see related

it just seems like this has been a ridiculous summer...

my Aunt Cris died, and I loved her so much. my family won't be the same.

(she's the one in the maroon). She has six kids.

 Then, matt maxin died, and so did ethan apple, two kids from louisville. then yesterday, brandon's sister had a miscarriage, a week before the baby was due. Oh and today a bridge collapsed in Minneapolis.

It's just so ridiculous.

I suppose it seems like now I should have some words of wisdom or something about the circle of life and about how God gives and He takes away, but I don't, because I think it's ok to just revel in the ridiculousness of it all sometimes. Because it damn sure is pretty ridiculous and He can't seriously expect us to sit down here every time something like this happens and smile all pretty and nice and say "well, we realize You have a plan." Even HE sobbed when Lazarus died. Well now we're sobbing.

A woman came up to my uncle around the funeral and said "Jerry, I've seen Jesus Christ alive in two people in my entire life, one was a nun in elementary school and the other was your wife."